Monday, 23 January 2012
{ 12:32 am }
Honestly, i rarely blog. but i just cant help it. :( Im really down and i dont know who to turn to. i just gotta let it out. . The only thing that i really want from you is to show that you care. but its really too much to ask from you isnt it? of course it is. you substitute me with unnecessary things. I was a temporary. im just some pleasure that you take advantage of for awhile. after you used me, you throw me away. sometimes i really regret. regret that i talked to you. regret that i had the 'man instict' to talked to you just because i was attracted to you. see where it led me into? just more disheartened. just plain heartbroken. yes i admit that im attracted to you from the beginning but never thought it would be this strong. :/ im really stress. i dont know how im feeling right now. on one hand, i think you're everything. on the other, im just a temporary. sometimes i know that you said all the things you have to say just because you think that its suppose to be that way. you dont feel it. i felt it. but its really really hard when only myself feeling them. and the fucked up part is when you are not affected at all. you live your own life as per normal. whereas im right here, thinking all day all night about this. fuck! and the shitty thing is, i dont blame you for it. i blame myself for thinking that i even had the slightest chance. the other fucked up part was also when we went out together, fcking hell you know how to make me feel so good and so 'in love' with everything you do. ERGH! im trying my best to hate you. to lose all that feeling but guess what? i cant. AND! i knw that i wont get shit from you coz you could care less about me. you have tons of friends out there who's dying 'to get to know' you better. Fuck this shit. im tired of this crap! ergh fcking hell. gotta stop thinking about you and let myself move on. :'/ this is giong to be fcking hard!
Labels: All i want from you is to show that you care~
