Saturday, 26 March 2011
{ 2:41 pm }
"No Women, No Try! Be A Man With No Cry!"
maybe i should try this principal. i mean, seriously. im tired of girls. im not saying im gay or anything. its just that i have not met anyone that truly understands and know me. every girl i met and started to like, left me heartbreaks. its really tiring. I've watched many young couples out there, holding hands and snuggling with each other, and i thought to myself, are they gonna last? are they gonna be able to forget all this once they've broken up? its the same questions not only i asked, but most of the young couples too. and see what happens. start off as friends, slowly gettng intimate with one another, become lovers, slowly getting issues, broke ups, and now become enemies. btw, i said most. not all.
and i dont believe in getting back as friends after breaking up. i mean cmon, you guys broke up mostly about cheating or something horrible that has happen. are you really gonna be "just friends" with your partner? its bullcrap. btw, it is possible though but it takes months to get over it or years in fact. and for those who mention tat they cn be friends after break ups, that goes to shows that you dont love them enough. coz think about it, if you really love that person, and you guys broke up. isnt it hard for you to be able to be "just friends" with them? its gonna be damn hard just by talking to them. let alone be friends. coz memories are there. you wont forgt about the memories just like that. it takes time.
I'm sorry. i just got to let it out. those of you who read my blog, which i doubt many who does since i only let few people know about my blog, if you think differently, up to you. i dont mind. im postng based on my experience. so if you have a different opinion, that's up to you. so jyeah.
that's all for today. ive been sick since like forever.
Monday, 21 March 2011
{ 5:56 pm }
Look at this picture. tis picture was taken when i was 14. There are no particular difference in my appearence when i was 14 and now 17. only that i grew taller. my face didnt change. -.- haiya. sometimes i wished my face would somehow change soon. hee. and wow, I'm 17. how super fast is that? it seems like onl yesterday that i had my 13th birthday party. haha! time does travel fast! 0.0
alright, school term has start. and my gawd, super lots of CRAP! (homeworks and assignment). sometimes i wished all my work would automatically be done. i will be the happiest person alive. hee. but i know, nothing will be achieved without hardwork. blablabla. haha! okay.
honestly, i think my friends are like the best. they never fail to make me laugh. although im the one who starts the punchline, but still, they would add up on it. haha. so jyeah it feels so good yknow. evn though i come to school, feeling all messed up since im still recovering from my sickness, they light me up with their crazyness uh. i dont know how to survive without them nxt year. :( but nvm, my future is as important as them. :D we'll stay in contact someway or another. :D
k la, now i wanna do my wrk. i hope to get it done without getting distracted. xp. butthat' kinda impossible.
Saturday, 19 March 2011
{ 5:31 pm }
Presenting Aizat. He is a Malaysian singer. quite popular i might add. anw, i have a very important question. DO I LOOK ANYTHING LIKE HIM!? i really wanna know. people said i look like him. i beg to differ. -.- its irritating. haha.
so i just came back from holiday- 3d2n trip in johor. i know right boring. but that's not the worst, the worst part was the sickness i had to overcome. the whole freaking holiday was ruined coz i was sick uh. stress siol! haha. it was hardship for me. seriously. felt like dying sia. i have to force myself to eat something coz my medication clearly stated "must be taken after food" -.- thanks doc! anw, i kinda have some fun too. had a few laugh. i cant laugh too much coz ill end up coughing. i dont mind coughing. i hate flu! ergh! stupid flu!!! it was hard for me to go to bed coz first, i was in a hotel air condition room. and 2nd, the flu was freaking irritating! it was like a bad sickness combo! and te medication had "side-effects" like migrane and stuff. till now i feel like knocking out. but i cant. HAHA! ouh jyeah, other than that, whenever and wherever i go to malaysia, without fail 1 or 2 people will mention that i look like Aizat. -.- wow thanks! seriously, i dont look like aizat! or do i?
k la, i have nothing else to say but maybe to mention about the new term in school. :D i might be changing my ways of studying. i might be spending more time in school to recap on the lessons covered. and for the weekends, i might be going to the library more often. P.s realise i used the word "might"? see how careful am i? HAHA! :D
Wednesday, 16 March 2011
{ 2:18 pm }
Sedihkan muka fyque? mcm nk kesian kan pun ada, mcm nk kene sepak pun ada! haha! tu la kehidupan fyque, kalau tk sedih, happy. kalau tk happy, sedih. it will just keep on revolving like the earth revolving around the sun. kehidupan fyque nie tak complicated sangat. sebenarnye senang je. fyque cuma belajar di sekolah, jadi umat islam yang soleh, dan jadi anak yang semua ibubapa impi-impikan. tetapi, fyque, seperti ramai remaja2 yang ada dekat luar sana, ada masalah yang mencabar kesabaran dan emosi. masalah fyque boleh diselesaikan, cuma fyque inginkan bantuan je. iaitu sokongan dari keluarga dan kawan2. Malangnya, kedua2 pertolongan, hanya menambah masalah yang fyque sedang hadapi.
keluarga fyque tak habis2 inginkan fyque belajar sahaja. maklumlah fyque akan mengambil peperiksaan O-level tahun ini. fyque tahu niat keluarga fyque memang baik. tetapi mereka harus faham tentang keperluan fyque tersendiri. kalau tiap2 kali fyque asyik harus belajar, fyque sendiri stress. fyque pantang kalau disuruh belajar apabila fyque dipaksa. senang kata, fyque tak akan progress kalau dipaksa. fyque kene ikut mood. lagipun, fyque punye results not bad what?! -.- agaknye la.
Lagi satu pula, kawan2 fyque. entah la. kebelakangan ni, fyque mcm kene pakai buang gitu uh. kalau kawan bermasalah, mereka datang kat fyque. kalau tidak, mereka tk pandang fyque pun. fyque hanya katakan tentang some of my friends je. tak semua. ada yang selalu berada disisi. :) fyque hanya ingin tahu, kenapa kawan2 yang fyque ambil berat tentang, selalunye tidak ambil kisah pada fyque. dan ape yang buat fyque lagi binggung adalah apabila mereka berkata macam2 untuk membuat fyque percaya dengan kata2 manis mereka. tiba2, mereka lupakan fyque gitu sahaja. fyque tk kisah kalau mereka sudah tk nk berkawan ngan fyque. tetapi setidak-tidaknye, beritahu fyque la. takmo simpan2. nanti fyque pikir yang bukan2 uh. :/
hmm. ape la nasib hidup aku ...
i have no freaking idea why i speak malay+some english.
but i need to improve on my bahasa. :D
Oh yeah, btw tomoro im going johore till saturday! wohooo! shopping spree! i hope. -.- AHAH! yay! dont miss me so much while im away. haha! toodles! :D
Sunday, 13 March 2011
{ 7:35 pm }
Introducing, Julia Sheer and Tyler Ward
Both my favourite youtube artist! :D they are awesome! go search for them and subscribe! I'll assure you, you'll love them! as much as i do! :D
K, i dont know what to post about la actually. so im gonna post about yesterday event. went out to work early in the morning. then after work, met putri at vivo. we were supposed to give a surprise birthday bash for Ika and Hirzi. haha! but kinda fail? we were supposed to buy her a cake but gueas what, VIVO somehow dont have a freaking cake shop! not that we are aware of anyway. so we panicked and decided to buy donuts instead. hha! funny shit. then after that, ika and some friends came. so we bash2. then blah3. haha! k after that we went arab street. planning to go shisha but last minute cancel. so we went clark quay. we lepak sampai kul 9.30. then we balik! :D pictures will be uploaded in facebook. ill upload some here also. :D
SO jyeah! that's all i guess! toodles! :D
Friday, 11 March 2011
{ 7:56 pm }
Today is the last day of Term 1. it feels so fast. it seems like it was just yesterday was the first day of school. wow. time flies so fast. and soon gonna sit for my upcoming O-level exams. damn it. i am so not ready. maybe for now not ready uh. my CA1 results was not up to my expectations uh. :( so sad. 1 A1, 1 A2, 2 B3, 2 C5 and 1 C6. EEEEW! that totally sucks la kan! i just couldnt accept the fact that im doing badly for my english. this always happens to me. im concentrating on all my weaker subjects and nt focusing on my good once. see the results. my english drops from B3 to C5! the shit laa! :( k, i got to do better for my mid-year sia! die2 must do well! :D
You used to call me everyday
the words mean nothing
without someone to say
now I stand beside myself in the pouring rain
and I just want to see your face
When you're far away
I miss you
but I know you're here with me
when you're far away
I need you
I lie awake it's ten past three
this empty feeling
and baby I can't sleep
the only thing I left behind
a smile you can't see
I need you
And I won't go back
and I can't go back
you're all I ever needed
I want you back
but you can't come back
you know I didn't mean it
I take it back
and still i pray
for one more chance
for one more day with you
with you.
i just want to know if im present in your life~
Labels: But i dont think you need me
Sunday, 6 March 2011
{ 8:13 pm }
I miss my coloured hair. :( haa. nvm, by the end of this year, my hair back! HHA k lame. i can't believe i spend my entire weekends at home. wow superb! i love it! NOT! k i'm rarely at home seh especially on weekends. hmm. i didnt do anything else except to eat. -.- im getting fcking fat sia. fck! k, new resolution starting whenever i want to. i gotta stay fit! eversince my tournament and training was over, im fcking munching on junks! damn it. got to get myself into shape sia! -.- k whatever la.
Listening to your voice brings back memories. really. the way your laugh never fails to make me smile. the way your eyes never fails to make me feel weak. the way you speak never fails to leave me speechless. the way your scent never fails to make me have addiction. sometimes i just wished it would just be the way it used to. even if she have to hurt me again. i dont mind. as long as i can feel the love between us again. it took me all this while only to have the guts to talk to her. i despised her. what she has done to me was rather unfair and hurtful. i knew that the reason we broke up was not about my past. i knew it has gt to be a third party. and its true. she confessed. i actually felt relief that she tld me the truth. it make it so much easier for me to forgive her. to be honet, i already forgive you long time ago. its just that i am not ready to man it up. oh well, its already been said and done. no point crying over spilt milk right? so jyeah. now me and her are back to being friends. im glad that we made up. :)
I miss you Goofbar.
Saturday, 5 March 2011
{ 12:03 am }
Putri Qistina have been my closest friend since i started my secondary school life. She has always been there where i could talk to or just being crap. but we should realise that we wont be sticking to only one friend. there are always othr social circles out there that are better. I'm not hinting or anything. but She just aint there for me when i needed her. she's not like she used to. sometimes she's fun to be with but sometimes she's just too mature to entertain my crazyness. dont worry guys, my friendship with her are still there and i love her like hell. just wanted to point out that there are never any bestfriends in this world. ;Dspeaking of friendship,i pissed at someone. just because i cant go to your place like i said i would, didnt give you the fcking right to screw me. you just made it worst. you asked me what kind of a friend i am?! fck you! asked yourself what kind of friend am i that i cant even understand the situation he is in?! sometimes right, i feel like punching your face sia. but yknow what, i just let it go and you know what? i eventually went to your effing place, pretending to be alright. fck you! okay fine, i know you're mad and shit, but dont treat me like im plastic. i got feelings too. its not to my power if my parents dont allow me. shit you i ave to cancel my bloody outing with my family just to go your house! -.- _|_
OTHER THAN THAT!
had sportsday just now! YELLOW HOUSE WON CHAMPION HOUSE! WE JUST MADE HISTORY COZ YELLOW HOUSE RARELY WON ANYTHING FOR THE PAST FEW YEARS! haha! congrates yellow! :D wooohooo! :D
k take care. penat uh. nk sleep:D
Tuesday, 1 March 2011
{ 6:52 pm }
Happy Belated Birthday Umi!:)
i know i should have posted this on the date of her birthday but i was super busy. but hey! i did it anyway. so i wanna take this opportunity to wish her and also apologizes for all the wrong doings ive done so far. then later can forgive me for other sins during hari raya! HAHAH! xp. well, other than that, i hope you live your life to the fullest and be happy. :D
I love you so much umi! :D
