Sunday, 11 April 2010
{ 6:35 pm }
exams are near. im not ready for shit! so what now? ive been studying recently but kept getting distracted. i dont know la about alot of stuff. im really ergh! i can do it! really i love getting distracted. i'm feeling sad right now. and seriously, i got no one to let this out to. coz there's no one understands me. sumpah! like they can give me the advise that i already know but they still dont know how i feel or been through. why this keeps happening to me? and recently, im getting short tempered. got one time, i was doing maths and i dont get the shitty question and i tore the paper intio pieces. i took the pillow and went to sleep. feeling frustrated. i dont know what's happening to me. and recently im also quite rude to some of my friends uh. im sorry whoever notice me being rude. i really didnt meant to. but yeah, coz now i feel like some of my friends are being immature and idiots. so sometimes i got fed up with that and screw them! yeah i dont know. maybe ive change. i dont know. :(i really dont know what you want from me.one time you say you love me and miss me.but how come you never really show it? you never showed that you care.you never showed that you love me. what?! is it like this?! is this how girls treat their partners?are your words just for the sake of saying? through pityness? cmon uh! if you dont love me anymore, seriously just say it.it hurts me more to know that you dont love me but still let me think you love me. im not some idiot which you can use. :(ergh! fck my life!
i cant wait for 2012! oh how i wish its the end of the world!