Wednesday, 28 April 2010
{ 7:45 pm }
The very first attempt two days ago.
4 panadols
1 hour later another 2 panadols
halve an hour later another 2 popped in.
second attempt yesterday.
3 panadol
3 hours later, 2 more
NOW.
5 panadol straight down my throat.
my hand is shivering, im really cold now.
Sunday, 18 April 2010
{ 9:59 pm }
IM SAD!
im fed up because im not able to play my favourite sports and stuff.
i tore a small amount of my ligaments. and i might not be able to play soccer.
there goes my soccer career. :(
I MISS STITCH! :(
im sorry baby. i wasnt mad at you. i was fed up coz of my knee. im fed up coz my knee is busted and i cant do anything. :(
i feel useless. really. i love you. i shouldnt be mad at you. :(
im sorry.
Tuesday, 6 April 2010
{ 9:24 pm }
First and far most, i would like to really really talk about my parents.
have you ever felt that at certain times you feel like killing your parents for thier attitude towards you? you feel like they dont know you? dont understand you?
feel like they criticized you? feel that you're unimportant to them?
well, i had experience such cases. and i wont lie that i want to just ran away from home or maybe just kill myself.
BUT an incident made me realise one thing about parents.
no matter how bad you think you parents are, all they ever want to do is to give the best for their children. really!
i realise one thing about my parents. they are the most opened minded people ive ever known.
i think compared to all my friends, my parents are like the most opened minded. i did something foolish recently and got caught for doing it. and my parents got to know.
and i already knew i was in deep shit! i kept picturing in my head about what they are going to do to me although they never beaten me up and stuff before.
but as i got back home. my mum went to me and we sat down.
i explained truthfully because i lied to her about what really happened on the phone earlier.
To my amazement, she didnt scold me or hit me. she talk nicely. she gave me advices.
its like she treat me as a pupil to her councel. then i dont deny that i almost wanted to cry. almost. but yeah, i kept my tears in.
i could see clearly that she was disapointed by the actions i took. i regretted it. till now even when she has forgiven me, i cant accept the fact that im such a faggot. i japordized my parents trust. :(
i learnt something from my mother's words, she said this and i realy think whoever is reading this must take this words into consideration coz to me, it makes sense and this is what has always been happening in the human race.
she said "
you can do a million good things in your life like what i've heard from your friends or teachers, but one mistake you foolishly make will be remembered by them for the rest of your life." so basically, she is trying to say that you will get praised for the good things you make and you'll be known for the good things you did but if you did one mistake, big mistake, it will be remembered by them forever. get it? its life. so yeah. i realized how much my parents knows about the way teenagers feel and work. obviously all parents knows coz they've been there and done that.
but how much do they show to you guys? see.
what im trying to say is that, im really very grateful to have parents like mine. i wont trade them for anything. really!
although they can be the pain in the neck, they are the only ones who will stick with me til the end of time!
i love them more than i love myself. (only that i dont really show it) :p
that's all for today i guess.
ill post again tomorow.
i didnt want to post abut this topic alot but i got carried away.
so im sorry. the post i wanted to do is about a different topic.
so ill post tomoro.
goodnight! :D
Thursday, 1 April 2010
{ 6:34 pm }
Stones, heavy like the love you've shown .
Solid as the ground we've known
And I just wanna carry on ,
We took it from the bottom up
And even in a desert storm.
Sturdy as a rock we hold .
Wishing every moment froze.
Now I just wanna let you know,
Earthquakes can't shake us .
Cyclones can't break us.
Hurricanes can't take away our love
Greeting earthlings! haha its been awhile. haha. oh well. exams around the corner, and i wont lie to you guys that i went off studying. i didnt. i tried but too much distraction. and usually those distractions are good distractions. so really cant help it. haha.
i find time to post something. actually i dont know what to post. really. weee! :D
well, recently, school abit boring uh but i like going coz i can go see ehem ehem! :D always makes me smile one. :D. my results really bad. :(. feel like crying! wekkkk!
k la i dont know what to post already!
:)i love stitch! :D
