you ever felt that you love someone but never get thier love back in return? you feel the world crashing down on you and still wonders if there's hope for you to be with them? and every day you have thoughts of whether they think of you coz you are thinking of them? you started to fantasize about what its like if both of you were together and live a happy ending? and when all those hopes were high, you just felt that they are not feeling the same? one-sided love?
recently, in school, in malay class. we've been studying about teenagers love. and all i can think about was this girl. ehem ehem. bluek. haha. i bet most of you guys knows. whatever. anw, in class, we studied about love thingy and during teens is discouraged to be in love. wait. not discouraged la. probably, wary of the consequences and the impact falling in love when you're not ready during teenagers. well, some of you probably says that you guys are ready for this love thingy. but when i think about it. how many relationships lasted? not many. some only, and that also depends on each individuals.
im in love. i confessed. but im not sure im ready to be committed yet. and i know she's not. we talked about it. both of us needs time to adjust ourselves before we get into serious relationship. although she's younger than me, i find her equally matured. at least mature enough for my liking. haha. i love her yes. she loves me, she said she does. but still, anything can change right? so im not going to put up high hopes on this issue and probably keep my relationship with her to the next level but not to the extend that she might think im desperate.
Speaking of desperate. i dont know what is desperate in malay. haha. and just now i was doing my malay letter and i wanted to use the word desperate and i was stuck for 15 minutes. stared blankly at my fulscap. wth.
as i was saying, love can be hard to handle. but seriously, it could be simpler if both party could understand each other. i learnt that love is friendship. without friendship, you cannot be in love. friendship is the key of your developement of love starts to grow. i dont know, this is what i heard when i was in the malay class. haha. anw, is it true? you decide. coz i think its true. before loving somebody, friendship is the best way to start. after that if there's the connection, there's love. its kinda true. :D
