Friday, 31 July 2009
{ 8:34 pm }
I MISS MY GIRLFRIEND!, SULASTRI~! LOL!
Wednesday, 29 July 2009
{ 8:21 pm }
When a certain someone said how sad or bad their life might be, they have no idea how bad or sad others out there might be as well. and theirs are worse. 10X worst! im disgusted with the fact that some people will make their freaking small problem into some big damn major problems. i mean, with problems we are naturally facing like friends, and relationships or schoolwork, it can be solved. but no, you humans drag it on and on and make it a bigger issue and hatred is the results of what you humans do. typical humans. what im trying to say is, appreciate what you have and avoid from being hated or gained hatred for someone or something. enjoy your freaking life for god sake. you bunch of bonzos are lucky to live further than some people who arent able to and you guys are not taking advantage of that! you humans must be an Ahole! ergh.
Tuesday, 28 July 2009
{ 9:12 pm }
i dont why or how,
but my head is keep stinging. i always felt dizzy like somethings not right.
sometimes i feel like puking but i cant. is it migrane? haikal got it and the looks of it, migrane is much
worse. i dont know uh. sometimes my vision gets blur. i got backaches. ok that normal. hmm. i wonder....
i read breaking dawn again. well basically because Balqis wants to know what happened. omg, i got to know
that she actually read it already. i went all the trouble reading the book! pfft. thanks alot qis!
anw, i feel as if the new movie should be interesting coz bella falls for jacob. but also i feel sad for edward coz
i feel as though bella has a mixed feelings. pfft. oh well, lets see what happens. my sister said i look like a werewolf sometimes.
well, i couldnt blame her. im one of them! lol. the hell fyque?
my uncle came to my house just now, he bought my brother this full package of wrestling action figures! whoah!
Triple H also have sia! my favourite wrestler! actually i dont really watch wrestling but if Triple H was on, ill reconsider! lol!
im really anxious coz i want my new gibson guitar so bad! i really thought of having this chinese girl from my class to be the
singer for my band. but i dont know if she wants to or not..hmmm. she has awesome voice! very projective and her tone is damn awesome!
my idol! her voice is really! ergh! so far the best voice from my friends i heard in my life! :D
i tried to call you, text you. but everytime my heart didnt want to.
Labels: Emma Watson
Sunday, 26 July 2009
{ 11:19 pm }
HARRY POTTER WAS THE BOMB!
it wasnt what i expected seriously. it was a good movie. not great but good. i still prefer goblet of fire.:D. i cant wait for deathly hallows. the last book. omg, i cant get emma watson out of my head! i never noticed her to be so gorgeous. untill recently. im in love! hahaim somehow in no mood coz im angry with someone. you know who you are. i already told you not to hang out with him but still, you insist that he is a good guy. look at what he did? he is so good now huh? ive warned you. ibu warned you. even your ex bf warned you. why dont you listen. lucky you were in no harm or i wouldnt be able to face ibu. you know ibu cried when she heard you went out with him? its not that ibu angry with you, she is worried about you. she worried you'll end up like her. please, think about what you did. think about ibu if not for me. at least, you have a reason for doing so. dont be intimidate with his words. cause honestly actions speaks louder than words. i know no ones perfect. i know that very well. but you should know that too. he is a gone case. you for all person should know to stay away from people like him. i dont get it, why do girls go after guys who they honestly know he wont give you a good future? i dont get it. sigh. whatever it is, you have to talk to ibu about this. ibu remind me to take care of you and i promised her. i promised her. so try to stay out of trouble and make my life easier can? i love you but sometimes you careless in choosing people you socialise with. so, i really need you to think and act.other than that, take care!
Labels: Emma Watson
Saturday, 25 July 2009
{ 9:33 pm }
HEYHO!
alright, today was fun. went to breakfast with big sis and small bro. we went to lot 1. not that far. eat food junction and we went off to search for my big sis fiance's birthday gift! OMG, my sis bought for him a LEVIS WALLET! which cost $60 over plus! omg! haha. but my sis also bought me this billabong cap! heee.. it cost around $24? i think. or maybe much higher. so yea. then i went to meet cliques! not really all of them but some. there was, Me, Lizhe, Hirzi, Ika and Shaff. yea we went out. it was all the way laughter and so much laughter!we make fun of people if not, we make fun of each other. yea so that was that. fun liao!TOMOROW!
My big sis gonna treat me and my other siblings to watch Harry Potter and blahblahblah! lol. quite excited,
COZ!!!!!!!!!!
ILL GET TO MEET HER, EMMA WATSON!! not exactly or literaly but technicaly! lol. ohkay! im done!Take care!
Labels: FUN
Wednesday, 22 July 2009
{ 9:55 pm }
OMG! I CANT FCKING DO IT!! WHAT AM I DOING!? FYQUE! ITS ALREADY TIME TO LET HER GO! WHY CANT YOU DO IT?? ERGH! ITS SIMPLE! JUST DELETE HER! PRESS DELETE! PRESS THE BLOODY DELETE! OMGGGGGGGGG! FYQUE YOU'RE HOPELESS! WHY I STILL FEEL SHE'S SOMEONE SPECIAL? AFTER ALL, SHE DOESNT NEED ME OR CARE ABOUT ME ANYMORE! HONESTLY, THIS IS MY FIRST TIME FEELING LIKE THIS!! WHY THE FCK! I SWEAR I FEEL LIKE BURSTING INTO TEARS!! ERGH!
{ 8:49 pm }
something really really really wierd happened today. i dont know if its just happens to me or anything but it is certainly the first time. my first time. so here goes, there i was minding my own business at home. when someone sent me a msg. it was an unknown number. the person said this. "i know you will freak out by this message. before i start, i dont want you to freak out or anything. :D! k after you have not freak out, im gg to tell you my name and what relation i have with you. ready? ok, im Amirah. im your ex."
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW SHOCKED I AM? haha
why you might ask. well lets just say that i have never heard of her. ever! i dont remember any of my ex named Amirah. haha. so i kept cool and ask her how she met me and stuff that i need to know to get prove/evidence she actually know me and we were together. at first i dont believe her coz i thought she was some pranker or something. so to prove, she called me! ok, im convince she's a girl. she convinced me that she knows me. (SHE DOES KNOW ME). and i quite believe her after all the questions i ask her and she answered correctly. i dont know how. i dont know why. but she sure to know me well. we ended off our conversation with her experience in secondary school and then she said, she was sorry to call you and text you. she was just bored and she found my number. -_-! HOW WEIRD IS THAT!?
and i dont remember her. i dont recall! my brain is killing me. haiayayayai!
oh well, whatever la. anw, TOMOROW WATCH ICE AGE 3 WITH AIDIL, LYANA and thier friends. LOL. YAY!
Tuesday, 21 July 2009
{ 8:52 pm }
I am really not that interested in people's affair unless it have anything to do with me or my social friends. i need to think straight and look ahead to bright and better future.
I had a long talk with balqis. im scared. scared for her. she sounds really weak! D: i knew. i so knew she got not much time. i know. i know she was crying. i know she didnt want me to know. i could hear her through the phone. she doesnt want me to know but i knew it. im speechless. :D:
Monday, 20 July 2009
{ 10:27 pm }
this time i realise that i've been falling in love.from the deepest of my heart, i do love you.my love is not an ordinary love when it belongs to you. and its you who stay with me for the whole of my life.accept my confession, please. believe me that everything i did 'cause you are mine. Labels: this meant for no one
{ 10:17 pm }
WHAT HAPPENED TO BLOG? The Post Part Looks Different?! DARN IT!
Sunday, 19 July 2009
{ 2:50 pm }
Hello readers! im back from chalet. i didnt took alot of pictures uh. my uncle did it with his camera. i want to ask him for the photos but ill do that later. so you see the picture. me and my first daughter. her name is Nia Ramadani. cute or what? the face alike? of course la! duhhhh. my daughter what. anw, chalet was quite ok but also quite boring. we didnt do anything that is some how fun like last time. it was just a ok2 thing for me. i dont want to tell you everything that happened at chalet. so yea. im now freaking tired. goodbye!:D
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
{ 5:25 pm }
Me: i feel so stupid
B: "i feel so stupid, stupid for loving you. so stupid, stupid for trusting you. oooooh!
so stupid,you're so stupid" hahahahahah.
Me: you, tk perlu seh. yes im stupid.
B: haha. chill la u. u nie over stressed uh. nnti uban semua keluar. dah tk seksi. (giggles)
Me: pantat you yg berkuali! seksi ke hapek?! seksi tk kene mcm gini eh pls.
B: alar, main2 je tak bloh. emotional seh u nie. hmphf. nk cheer you up pun salah ke?
Me: haha. tk salah la. thank you la k?
B: ahhh, kan sedap dgr. lagipun, i confirm you 100% yg u confirm tk akan dpt lupa kan dier.
Me: HUH??! which side are you on?! ergh!
B: eh salah, haha.. i meant you dpt lupa kan dier. haha. typo!
Me: terkejut seh abg body nie. LOL.
B: pfft abg body. abg guli ada uh! muahahahahah.
Me: kurang hasam. apa la nasib aku dpt kwn mcm gini?? lol
B: nasib u baik seh. kalau tkda i kan, confirm you mendak to the max! lol.
Me: Betul jgk. haha.. im really sad and hopeless right now nanananananana!
B: chill la u, everythings gonna be alright. give yourself some time. like i said, she dont deserve
your patience, care and concern. sigh, you find others ok?
Me: susah la. im not gonna find others and im also not gonna wait for her anymore. maybe what
you said is true uh.
B: maybe so. if she really the type you "take and let go", you are really a nobody to her already.
Me: thank you! for that kind words! -_-!
B: haha. ok sorry. dah la. dont think about it liao.
Me: ill drive myself crazy sia thinking of it.
B: you or her made a mistake to let both go so its actually both of you and her fault. :D
Me: ok2 fine. -_-!
B: ok i got to get back to my room. my teachers waiting. bye! i love you. take care la! text me later!
Me: ok. I love you too. hey, study tau! your exam nxt week. :D take care too!
{ 12:02 am }
why do you make it sound as though im the one to blame for this?
its you who wanted to forget me and blahblahblah. but you make it sound as though im the one wants to forget you. well, honestly i really missed you. but i see you dont. you dont even bother to text or at least contact me like you do. dont you get it? all i ever wanted from you is to show that i am at least there and not invisible to you. you dont even care. so i thought, its ok maybe you are busy. and sure you were. too busy to contact me but wow have time for other guys? im impressed. sigh. i deleted you from fs and fb is because you told me to try and forget you. you're doing your part and what not. im doing my part. dont make it sound as though im to blame here. even if you read this, you'll ignore cause you're too busy to care for a nobody.
Labels: im such a loser
Tuesday, 14 July 2009
{ 7:16 pm }
DONT WORRY, I WILL! anyway, dont come and tell me you miss me cause it meant nothing to you. you're saying just of the saying. please spare yourself from lying and spare my eyes and ears from knowing it. and please, be nice to other guys and dont make them be like me. cherish them. ;(
Monday, 13 July 2009
{ 9:53 pm }
today was alright. well, actually everyday i say its alright huh? BORING! lol.
we started off with having our new classroom! its in the new block. its alright. near the canteen. near the school gate. near the general office. but quite far from the toilet and watercooler.
i find it reasonable being there but im going to miss the old classroom coz theres alot of memories there. hmm. wel, mainly disturbing the lower secs. not really disturbing just making fun of them. and the laughs me and my friends had. the scolding by that old teacher. lol. i dont know but i think i have issues with her. period. coz she scold us of being noisy like as if her class is some kind of angels. we are not seeking revenge but we just want to let you guys know how the class is when having thier recess. :D its called re-enactment. you dig?lol. so yea. Mr. liew went in our class and explain of how convenient is the clas for us. haha. yeah, most of us are satisfied. i think.
MRS.LIEW! omg, she cut her hair short! she look PRETTY AND YOUNG! but kind of funny coz maybe ive always pictured her with long hair. but im not turn off by it coz i know her inside wont change no matter how she change outside. she will always be the most caring teacher ever! :D
1st lesson was maths. finally, we learnt new things about the quadratic equation graph thingy. woohoo! im siked about it man. like i can do something challenging. haha. so far so good! i really can study uh this year. but depends onthe class behaviour when lesson is conducting uh. sometimes the class gives me hell. Heck, they give me hell all the time! fckos! haha. oh well, gonna stick with them for the rest of my secondary life. -_-! (miserable) anw, mr leong is good so far handling the class.oh well. i hope he does as long as he could.
2nd lesson was Mother tongue. today MT was fun because we talked about crop circles. and my group consist of me, muhaimin, dayang and kartika. yeah. we laughed our lungs out uh because we make fun of all the other students ideas about how the crops were created. yeah. and got really bullshits answers like Dinosours cause the crop circle. then got many elephants were brought there and sat on the crops and lie on the crops to make a circle.. all the stupid answers came up! hahahah. and i was called ET by muhaimin and dayang. we laughed all the way! really fun.
after that. we had social studies. wow im really starting to think that the sinhala from sri lanka is really whatever uh. cannot share country meh? singapore can share millions of different races and you guys cant even give equal rights with one race; Tamils? ishk3.. so bad. well, i was absent from school on friday so i didnt do the essay although i knew i was suppose to do it. well, i have a good explanation for that. urm, i left the notes in school. there, simple explanation but effective. :P i think.
then at 10.30am! we had our recess la pantats! you know how early is that! ergh. i was pissed uh coz stil got 6 more period before going off home. ergh arshole. i know its no different but i dont want liao. no fun. lol.
english was next. pfft.. boring to the core la kan! after that history. i think history i can make it uh. i think so. coz i get the point of the rise of hitler and whatever other things uh. insyak'allah aku dpt faham. muahaha. then biology. its fascinates me of how the nature changes around us. with different solutions and stuff. im impressed. but the lesson quite boohoo haaahaaa! boring btw! hmm.. alright. i have nothing to talk about. CCA IS RESUMING NEXT WEEK I THINK! NOOOOOOOOO!Labels: i really miss you A
{ 12:29 am }
Im sitting here. thinking bout how im gonna do without you're around in my life. and how am i, im gonna get by? i aint got no days. just lonely nights. if you want the truth, well girl im not alright. feel out of place and out of time. and i think im gonna loose my mind. so baby tell me how you feel. im lonely. are you for real? so real. do you think of me? i think of you baby still.
Sunday, 12 July 2009
{ 12:56 am }
WELL, I DONT REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY.
LOL. OH AND BALQIS, THANKS FOR SAYING THAT IM A MORON. -_-!
THATS WHY SULASTRI LOVE ME! lol.=)
{ 12:42 am }
I dont know when we fell apart. coz the love that we had was like a work of art. and i used to see heaven in your eyes. now angels are falling from your skies. the things we said were so wrong and i never held you for so long. my foolish pride turns me inside. why did we tell all those lies? you can reach for the phone. you dont have to be alone. outside the winter seems so cold. your heart is frozen like the snow. but theres no one home to keep you save and warm. your eyes are red because you cry. you fell asleep by the fire side. but there's one thing you should know. On the days, you dont have to be alone.
i have only one wish on my list. To me you would be a perfect gift. theres nothing colder than an empty home. and time like this were never meant to be alone. the smiles we gave when our heart were safe by each others love and warmth. that's subsided now. no happiness around. if i could only find a way to your heart. I'm sure you've heard these words before. And I know it's hard for you to trust them once more. You're afraid it all might end. And a broken heart is scared of breaking again. But you've gotta believe me I'll never leave you. You'll never cry long as I am there. And I will always be thereYou will never be without love
As long as sunlight lights the sky. Light of love will be found in these eyes of mine. And I will shine that light for you. You're the only one, I'll ever give this heart to. What I'm trying to say is, nothing will change this. There'll be no time you won't find me there. Cause I will always be there. You will always have all my love
Friday, 10 July 2009
{ 9:09 pm }
i was at home all day! thanks to my headache. i woke up and my head was spinning man. oh geeeeez! yeah, so i ask mummy for permission to skip school today.. mummy allowed it. my dad was abit strict about me skipping school. oh well. too bad. haha. well, i went out for awhile. i went to meet BALQIS! well, i was bored. she had lessons at home but she kind of "run away from home". haha.. bad bad bad. well, we didnt go where much. we went to lot 1 for awhile. then we went back to my place. well not really inside la but we kinda go near my block there. we talked. then her mum called. haha. she got scolding. lol. then her face like going to cry. but i laughed at her. then she hit me. i could still feel the pain on my arm. well, its not my fault that she "run away from home" lol. berani buat berani tanggung uh! lol. oh well, she had to go after that. we said our goodbyes. haha.. like as if im not gonna see her again like that seh. lol. anw, i went back home and watch tv all day. omgeez! so boring lor!i was thinking the whole day about her. i dont know. why is her face stuck in my head? why do i miss her? i mean, she doesnt even care about me. she doesnt want to know what im up to or how im doing. she seems happy. she didnt text me at all. so why am i feeling like this? omgeez! am i stupid or what? sigh. im invisible in her eyes. seriously. you wanna know what balqis called me when she know about this; A SPARE! yeah, that's what she called me. i dont blame her because that's exactly how i feel. Labels: So Stupid
Thursday, 9 July 2009
{ 11:12 pm }
Wow, i couldnt say what i thought i could say.what the hell. it was so hard for me to type it out? what's wrong with me?why is it so hard to say it? i couldnt find the words to express it. omg. i used to say those words frequently but after what happened, i really cant say it but i feel it. alot. i dont know la. maybe i think i feel like im just an outsider.Labels: i miss you
{ 8:56 pm }
School was ok. i really dont wanna talk abot school lor.. i get headache everytime i think about my school and class. i dont know why uh. but really giving me a headache. after i reach home, i straight away went to sleep tired liao. when i get up, i really feel like the world is spinning. i see everything spinning in circles.. i was having a headaches and illusions uh. mabuk! anw, i took my temperature and it was 37.8 degrees celsius. my mum gave me panadol. then i went for a nap. after that, i took my temperature again then it went down; 37. 4 degrees celsius. hmm. im still a bit dizzy.. after doing malay hmwk. i msg putri that my temperature was high and she went berserk. she told me to take care and not come to school and stuff. like my mother. lol. thank you for caring though! love you loads!
urm what else eh? im not suppose to post actually. lol. oh well. oh yeah, balqis finally regret what she did and she said sorry to me and all those things.. pfft. i may forgive but i could hardly forget. bet my words for it. so yeah me and balqis is alright now. she say she owe me alot. terutang budi la tu. ape saja je. i didnt even ask for that. i only ask for you to be able to take care of yourself and know what right and what wrong. is that even hard? hmm. ok i wont bring it up again. what i want to know is that she loves me. muahahahaha. anw, i dont want to lose her. she shows careness to me and everything that i need from her is there. but still, she's gonna go soon.D:. ok, i got to stop saying all these before i start to be gay. LOL. :D. ok im done.Labels: i dont want to go schol tomorow can mummy
Wednesday, 8 July 2009
{ 11:24 pm }
"We Are From Two Different Worlds" this was the words that's stuck in my head. this was what she said to me few moments ago."kutelah miliki, rasa indahnya perihku......"
(my ringtone actually)
b: as'salamualaikum.
me: wa'alaikumsalam. yeah?
b: you, i need you.
me: ok, im listening. haha
b: i tk tau nk buat ape uh u.
me: about him again? pls la u, dont make things difficult for u can??!
b: but i cant help it. i cant forget him.
me: everyone cant forget the ones they love. i cant. and she still contacts me. do you know how much it hurts talking to someone you love that doesnt love you back? and you act as if nothing is happening.
b: i tau la u. u always talk about her. she must really mean alot to you.
me: dahla, not about me now. its about you and that perv!
b: U! tk baik seh.
me: am i right or am i right? choose.
b: yerlar! u slalu cam gini seh.
me: anw, i really think you shud forget him uh. but honestly, gasak u la sebab i da bilang you jgn gi ngan dier. u punye degil, orng nye degil pun kalah tau tk?!
b: u ni betol2 not helping seh. im really dunnow what to do.
me: this is not a matter of choosing or not tau. its logic and simple to choose. say NO.
b: easier for you to say that!
me: it is, try it. maybe it will help you in life! HAHA(sarcasticly)
b: DAH LA! i dont know why im talking to you pun. all you can think about is yourself.
me: ??? ok???
b: uh, i didnt mean that.
me: nah, its ok. sometimes things that accidentally slipped is usually the truth. yeah i know.
b: no. i tk.. i mean... sigh.
me: hah, its ok la.
b: i know you too well to lie to me! ergh! we are from two different worlds! omg. i dun know what to say already.
me: yup me too.
click!i was hurt. haha. im messed up. my life is messed up. sigh. i dunnoe what to do or to say. all i can do is laugh to myself coz of having such horrible relationships with those i love. and it keeps repeating. all i can do is kind of, nothing. :/
i just got back together with another friend. but i still feel like somethings wrong. i dunt know. i feel so sad all of a sudden. but she's happy. that's good. now, another one just had a fight with me over her pervert guyfriend. sigh. i dont know what to do anymore. i think i try to hard to please everyone. but in this world, no matter how good or great power you have, you can never ever please everyone. so yea. im sorry.
{ 7:02 pm }
today i abit not lively at school uh. not the usualy wildness.
i dont know why. somethings been in my mind and i cant seem to know why or what.
i want to apologise to mrs.liew. she didnt did anything wrong but honeslty, i really cant take care of the class already. im having problems disciplining them. maybe im too friendly to them that they took advantage of me. i really dont know what else i could do to maintain peace, friendships and disciplin in our class already. i know you will encourage me not to give up already, i know that. and i dont want to dissapoint you but im to weak. i dont have the strength to cope with thier noises and studying at the same time. my head will spin and i tend to lose concentration in a result of me slacking which i really trying to avoid. sigh.
to azirah,
ive always forgiven you. al i wanted was to get an explanation so that i wont be living in the dark. i dont want u to keep anything from me. if possible la. i honestly dont want to put pressure on you. you have alot already in mind. i dont want, me, something unimportant to interfere and ruined your life like this. what you did was wrong, yes. that i must agree. but that's why we are living in this world. to learn from all our mistakes and not to repeat them again.
to balqis,
i dont know what wrong with your brain. why cant you think? its your own physical and you ask me what i shud do? im utterly disgusted by your actions. you should know better. you've said sorry umpteen times but do you really mean it? you kept on thinking twice abot what you're gonna do. it really has one answer and the answer is NO! sigh. contact with me when you find your mind and your soul. D:
Tuesday, 7 July 2009
{ 6:51 pm }
To Be Honest Right,
You really can tell me if you dont like it when people text you when you're feeling down. all you need to do is SERIOUSLY TELL ME! how in the hell would i know what you like and what you dont like when you're feeling down?! i remind you so many times to tell me if there's something you like or dont like so that i wont think alot and get worried. and yes, the most happiest time was that time we sang together. we did. i was happy back then. im glad that i was the first one to sing with you. before all this, before all the fights, you are really opstimistic. very cheerful and talkative. i dont know what really happened to you recently. seriously uh, if you got something that i dont know, you can tell me. ill understand. you dont expect me to know everything about you. we hardly even talk on the phone. what more meet? sigh. if distancing yourself from me is better for you. ill go for it. i wont force you to stay with me. you dont trust me anyway. so i see no point you staying with me and me hoping for our friendship to last. now im speechless. this post if you are reading. its really a matter of actually telling me. coz im not phsycic. :/
{ 5:59 pm }
today was all about laughters uh.. laugh laugh and much more laughters.
i realise that i cant survive without my group of friends. seriously. there wont be anymore laughters, concern and love from them uh. they really shine my life from all darkness deep inside.. although i might be the one creating the humour but they will continue them to make it more hilarious. i mean seriously, they are so far the best group of friends i have. and i think will be for the rest of my life.
sigh. i really feeling like shedding my tears uh. firstly because i really appreciate and really glad to have them as my friends. and secondly, that i realise that i really cant please everyone. maybe i tried to hard to make all my friends happy and i tried too hard to make them happy that maybe they find me irritating. oh well. its better this way.
to azirah
i dont know what i did that makes you ignore me uh. you say im happy? how would you know? you dont know anything. actually, i dont know you already. you've changed. alot. i text you almost everyday but you said that im busy. hello? you are busy. busy with your love life that you've forgotten your friends. you forget me. why cant you text me? must you wait for me to text you then you reply? which you seldomly do. so now, who is giving a cold shoulders now? we said that if there's a problem, we should work it but why you're giving me a cold shoulders now? like you dont even wanna talk to me. you dont even care about me la. so much for best friend? i dont know what happened to you. sigh. i dunnoe uh azirah. to me right, you are the one happy. seriously. not me. sigh.
Monday, 6 July 2009
{ 10:44 am }
hey readers!
pls dont mind me saying what im going to post but i need to let them out. so here goes.
firstly, im sick and tired of being cheated and treated like an idiot. she claims that i was special and wouldnt want to let me go. i knew from the beginning she was just saying this to make me feel better. but she convinced me that i was someone in her eyes. so i was glad la. but days past and she text me seldomly. i wonder what's wrong. is it because i didnt msg her that is why she didnt msg me. even though i didnt msg her, she could at least msg me right or not? it doesnt mean that i have to start EVERYTHING! that's one thing then the other thing. she has problems that she doesnt know what to do. she told me but when i tried to make her happy. she would text me later or didnt text me at all uh. then how am i going to cheer her up? sigh. so much for special and a great friend i am to her. i feel useless and being used by her. BF! ;/
secondly, another girl told me this. she had a fought with her so called admirer la. then after saying all those shit she say about him. she started to talk about how guys are jerks and idiots. she say that guys are flirters and all they can think about is sex. THE FCUK! i was really hurt uh. those guys who girls think that are jerks and stuff is really not the rest of the guys faults uh. its the girls fault. why you may ask? it is simple. because girls cant think and choose properly. simple. they go for mats and gangsters. why the fcuk? you girls know they are already loosen. you still go after them? now who is more stupid? use your fcuked up brain la. cb sia! why must blame to all other guys who i think, got some who are really nice and can be in a relationship. but girls says all guys are the same. you girls can go and die! i dont see a fcuking different between guys and girls.. guys can break girls heart and girls can do the same. girls can flirt, guys can also flirt. girls can play timer, why cant guys? so dont come to me and talk about guys are the same and you girls are not. coz you girls are fcuking the same! so fcuked off!
lastly, THANK YOU!
Labels: So Much For Important
Friday, 3 July 2009
{ 10:04 pm }
Just As I thought I'll be In good terms with her.text her just now. after a few days i didnt text her because i accidentally deleted her number from my sim card. luckily, i check my phone and her number was there. i msg her. i knew it was a very wrong time to msg her. But because of im missing her so bad. i cant wait for tomoro but to msg her. sigh. and i knew it, i tried to put on a smile when texting her. but she was in no mood. she said something about people around her giving her a facade. people say something to her but didnt take actions of what they are saying. its normal to everyone. sometimes people dont do what they say. but some have many reasons; they forget, they didnt have the time or anything uh. it happens to me. so i what i do is, dont trust that much with those who did this to me. simple. sigh. i really wanted to talk to her happily.. but i guess, im also one of them. sigh. damn it la. so much for great friend. hais.. haha.. funny la.. sigh.
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Wednesday, 1 July 2009
{ 8:59 pm }
THIS HEART MAY NEVER MENDthis i what she said to me.): i love you syafiq, you have been the greatest friend honestly. you're one who i will remember for life. your scent, smile, eyes and touch really, i will remember till death. i like to take this opportunity now before i go to thank you. Thank you for all the great things you've done for me.(she was crying at this poiint but smiling). i was never angry, mad or upset when im with you. you are really the only guy out there whom understands what im facing through and by doing that, you cheered me up too. i mean it when i said you cheered me up. i really laugh when you make all those lame jokes and funny accents. ergh! omg. i really miss those days when we started to know each other. when you look such a nerd but cute. haha. now look at you. all grown up. haish. i wont talk alot. haha. i want to apologise for all those things ive done to hurt you and make you worry for me. im really gonna miss your voice. I went silent all of a sudden. i knew her time has come. i really went silent! D: i dont know what to say. i look away from her. trying to hide all those tears. honestly, i do not want to lose her. i cant bear to lose her. she never really hurt me so bad. she only make me worry alot. i really want to be there for her. i want to ask god if there's some way for me to take her place?! D: you lied to me! you said you're gonna be okay. i know you're not gonna be but i want you to lie to me that you're gonna be okay. D: Just lie to me. D:!Labels: you're not gonna leave me alone in this world.
