Monday, 22 June 2009
{ 11:23 am }
WHAT A SAD MORNINGthis is personal. so readers, read this.
close friends. trust. lie. its really sad that that certain people treat me like im some kind of liar. i know that i always joke around and that can be fiction most of the time but i dont lie about serious stuff and what more to a close friend. i know that some of my friends dont trust me that much coz they thought that i was kidding around. but when i dont kid around, its the truth.
'she' thought i didnt had work on saturday and sunday. which was yesterday and last saturday. i told 'her' that ill be texting 'her' on monday which is today. but i online yesterday and 'she' went online, i think coz i didnt know. and i had enough of using the com and sign out. i check few of my accounts and shut down the com. i was at home back then. i ended early anw. at 8pm? or later. cant remember. so we all went home. i was already dead tired but i was desperate to check my emails and stuff.
it broke my heart instantly knowing that 'she' dont trust me. 'she' is just like the others. i thought 'she' would be different. but i thought wrong. i thought today would be a fine day coz i can relex finally from all the work i had. but this spoils everything. 'she said i was trying to avoid 'her'. why would i avoid 'her' anyway? 'she' said i lied to 'her' and stuff. i cant tell you reader coz it really hurting me telling all these. it is just hurting me so bad. i feel like, like. hais. i dont know.
maybe, just maybe...
'she' is just like others. im so dissapointed and hopeless right now. i dont know what to think or do. my heart is breaking into pieces and my brain thinks alot. D: i feel destroyed. :(.
bye!