Monday, 1 June 2009
{ 11:08 pm }
i really dont know what or how to start man.. alot have been going through my mind that i just want to let it go but it stuck inside ya know.. hmm.. if its good its ok but it is a negative perspective right now and i just need to let them vanished out from my brain.. i dont know what to do coz it involve too much love, trust and friendship.. why must people make things so difficult when they actually have brains that god have created specifically for us to think what's right and whats wrong? if you already know that the thing is wrong, just stop what ever in the hell you are doing.. as simple as that.. but NO! you wanna make it difficult for yourself.. not only yourself but others that is involve.. seriously oh god, get a grip and get a life la people.. stop making stupid mistakes that are unneccessary in life.. once its ok, twice is still fine but thrice, is just TOTAL BUULLSHHIIITT!!! get it? pls im begging you do a fcking favour for yourself k? stop making other miserable for thier life.. and yours too, i dont get it but if you didnt noticed you are making your own fcuked up life more miserable..so pls, stop whatever you are doing and think for your own.. coz seriously, friends is all you need in life.. im not saying this coz i hate you or anything, im only saying this because i care for you.. you shud know that..phew, got that off my chest.. anwwww, watched "night at the museum 2" just now.. with family.. dad and big sis only wasnt there, the rest went.. awesome movie! quite funny! the storyline much better than the first.. the egypt king was awesome! he make me laugh like hell.. lol.. in total, the show was satisfying! i just want to watch "monsters vs alien" now... jirah said it was good! haha.. i hold it up to her words! it better be coz if not ill go after jirah.. muahaha..
i realise something, only 3 days of school holidays and im bored to death.. no honestly, im seriously bored.. yes i did went out but i dunnoe why but i really feel effing bored! lol..guess i need to go to school.. i realise something about myself too, and im not making this shit up.. i really want to study.. and its for real this time.. no fooling shit! i donnoe, after hearing alot of stories about people's success, i want that.. i want to be successful.. make my family proud especially mummy coz she has high hopes for me..you know, im the eldest son in this family and i shud be the breadwinner of the family soon.. so in order to support my family, i really want to study hard.. but one thing is really getting in my way! and that is my MOOD! i always hated it.. my actions follows my mood.. ill study if only i feel like studying.. no shittin.. i dunnoe, its just me.. whatever i do.. whatever im saying, it really depends on my mood.. and my mood are always bad habits.. like lazyness, distractions and some things like that.. i dunnoe uh, i really need to step up the game man.. i already failed 2 subjects in all.. to be precise, i failed 3 subjects but what brought me up was my test.. now i know test is really important! like duhhh!!! i never know test was important coz what my teacher used to told me was that test is to show your understanding for that chapter.. i didnt know that it meant so much more.. thanks eh teacher.. i wont say who the teacher is coz i dont wanna ruin his reputation..; and job.. haha.. oh well, i think that's that..ill post more if i feel like it..:D peace and thank you! good night!
