Tuesday, 21 April 2009
{ 9:02 pm }
Lately things have been a little crazy..flippin out and buggin my thoughts..
god only knows just what i would be..If i didn't have you hear loving me..I
Wake up all hours of the night when u are away..i would crack a smile every time that you're on my brain..me without you just ain't right
So if i lose you how will i survive..Hais, i feel lost seh.. i was really not focusing.. always daydreaming and wonder to nowhere. omg.. i dont know if my deiseion is right or wrong.. it fells right but im suffering instead.. when im with you, im sad, without you also im sad.. hais.. what exactly that i want? i dont even know.. i notice something about myself.. when i relaly love that someone, i only can be friends with them.. nothing more.. seriously.. when i just admire and not really into relationship, ill be in a relationship with her.. omg.. that's just doesnt makes any sense.. but yeah, its me..
oh yea, today slack to the crapping core! imagine this, every lesson there were no teacher-in-charge... except for maths and mother tongue.. do you know that that was my happiest day yet! lol.. hmm.. had napfa! i totaly slack la during napfa.. so lazy! but i love my shuttle run though! 9.4 seconds! woohoo! how fast am i? lol.during lessons i told putri i had throat cancer. haha.. very funny.. my voice just became suckier everytime.. so much for joining anugerah next year.. haha.. hopefully, im ok by then.. hmm..
sigh.. i really am confused with my life.. its really sucks.. i mean, i really wish i have no feelings at all.. actually i wish i have no feelings of loving someone coz it will just end up hurting oneself..loving family is a must btw.. hais.. i really have no idea uh! what to do, what to say, how to react..i always kept thinking of you! why cant you just leave my mind! :( i miss you:(
