Thursday, 30 April 2009
{ 6:45 pm }
Hello!
first and far most, i really would like to apologise to mrs liew, form teacher..
i really feel as though im not responsible enough for being a monitor..
im really sorry for what ever that happened in the class for the whole past terms..
i think its my fault for not controling and monitoring the class.. me and putri tried our best but sometimes we really cant take it..its really hard to maintain the behaviour of our class cause they really are like seriously oblivious.. i dont know what oblivious mean btw but i like the word.. they are really like just cant listen to instructions..i dont know if they are deaf or just dumb.. whatever it is, im really sorry for whatever happened and im taking the full responsibility if anything happens that have anything to do with me..
this clearly shows one thing! i seriously hate people! no doubt about it!days before exams! i think im ready for no subjects! hah.. got you there.. pfft.. i am really freaking not ready.. obviously.. i think i can do maths.. haha.. i think la.. i dunnoe.. it seems as though i knw how to do it.. but im not that sure.. anyway, good luck all my friends for your exams.. and other people who i do not know, good luck too.. pass with flying colours.. eeeee, so oldies.. pfft.. just do well for youe exams aight?
i miss you, i guess im glad that you dont.
Monday, 27 April 2009
{ 11:13 pm }
MAJOR BLOWOUT!
my head is really like cramping la just now..
must be the stupid side effects from the medicine! hate it.. im so not gonna take it anymore! pfft... today, was freaking frustrating..urm actually only the later part of the day.. firstly art n craft! wth! i really hate la seh.. we need to finish drawing like from 12.30 to 3.30! wth! and mine is fucked up crap la my art! pfft.. my nose too big! my mouth too large! my eyes too nice.. lol.. hais.. seriously la! crap to the max! that's one thing.. then after that, went to computer lap to do OEL PROJECT.. just to do some finishing touches when suddenly, black out! n i havent saved the work and i did major changes! and i was like WHAT THE FUCCK!!! i felt like crying uh coz i almost finished and its due tomorow.. and my heart really dropped! but luckily, it auto save la! wth! nasib baik la.. hais.. if not, im so gonna die!
sigh maybe i really need to just leave you.. its the best way.. say what you have to say to me.. i dont care anymore.. i just really want to live my life alone..
i dunnoe what im doing but what i know is, i just want to live my live on my own.. you might think that i dont need you, i do.. but this is a risk i need to take.. i cant let you be there when im sleeping.. and dont worry, you will forget me sooner or later.. trust me, most of them do.. :(.. i confirm you.. you will..for now maybe no, but sooner or later, you will!
{ 8:42 pm }
So many times I thought I held it in my hands
but just like grains of sand
love slipped through my fingers
so many nights I asked the Lord above
Please make me lucky enough to find a love that lingers
Something keeps telling me that you could be my answered prayer
you must be heaven sent, I swear
cuz...
Something happens when you look at me I forget to speak
something happens when you kiss my mouth my knees get so weak
could it be true is this what God has meant for me?
cuz baby I can't believe...that something like you could happen to me
Girl in your eyes I feel your fire burn
oh your secrets I will learn
even if it takes forever
with you by my side i can do anything
I don't care what tomorrow brings as long as we're together
my heart is telling me that you could be my meant to be
I know it more each time we touch
cuz...
Sunday, 26 April 2009
{ 10:29 pm }
Life..
haha.. thinking bout it, i really cant believe ive been cheated by it so many times..
and im still believe in it.. haha.. how dumb can i be? its only for a moment of time fyque.. they will throw you soon like some trash.. haha.. when will you learn? hate myself on actually believing in this crap.. sigh.. ill only get it for a certain time and lose it.. lose it fast.. i must be really some trash in you people's eyes.. haha.. its ok, ive always had been.. im only used for awhile.. its ok.. haaa.. so funny la....
there were really a time where i feel as though i want to skip years.. the faster the better.. omg!! seriously, thinking about it, im really tired.. im just tired and bored.. oh god, pls help me..
2 weeks to exams! study schoolmates..
:|
Saturday, 25 April 2009
{ 10:15 pm }
Shaf was talking to me la when qis snap the camera.pfft
Let me start of the day with waking up and stariong at the laptop until 9.30am.. haha.. i get ready and went straight to cck interchange to meet hirzi and firdaus.. i was kinda late but firdaus was much much late. hah. anw, then we meet putri and sharif at jurong library and we started to do our project.. shaf came soon later.. then, continued with our "work".. haha.. we camwhored otw.. lol.. there the pictured up there.. LOL.. should have camwhored with the rest but they were busy "doing thier work" lol.. they were playing games.. wth.. in the end we dhavent completed the work..duhh, obviously.. pathetic sia!
went to queensway after that but firdaus had to go religious class and sharif had to go meet his mum.. so the rest went to queensway to order our class t-shirt! i think it would really suits our class coz it somehow suits?? lol.. what am i talking? anw, then went to plaza singapura to eat mcdonald and waiting for haikel, afiq and li zhe. to go park lane to play "LEFT FOR DEAD".. but we ended up getting lost.. lol..wasted 45 minutes searching for that place..lol. ANW, finally we got to the place and it was then 5+pm.. so we started playing.. 2 hours! lol.. so fun.. for the first hour, we played left 4 dead.. for the second hour, we played call of duty! and i really suck to the core! haha.. i think im the lowest kot! lol. pathetic again!
reach home around 9.45pm? lol.. wow.. kena lecture by dad.. hais.. felt bad.. hais.. but ill try not to be home late always though! k..
bye! gtg..:)
Friday, 24 April 2009
{ 9:09 pm }
3 Years Before Im Going To Sleep For Awhile:/
{ 5:41 pm }
good afternoon people..
let start off by explaining how my day was!
woke up and went straight to take a shower.. after that, went to school. revise for malay examinations.. sat for examination.. paper 1 was ok, i guess.. have you got this feeling that when you do composition, in your mind, there's really alot of things you wanna write but then sometimes, it just gets too many and you mixed them up and ended up messing it up? that's what happened to me.. but oh well, what's done cannot be undone right? hopefully it paid off.. anw, for the second paper, i kind of can answer the questions..i had trouble with the last few questions though..peribahasa was really quite ok la.. i think i get them correct but im not sure.. "good luck fyque for your mother tongue exams" Rini just text me.. Its too late for that huh girlfriend? lol..
was supposed to go out to jam.. but was cancelled instead..lisa didnt wanna go.. its ok..some other time maybe! now im sitting in this empty house doing nothing.. well, except for blogging and listening to music, playing the guitar.. chatting and chatting on the phone..
should i stay should i go
should i ask dont wanna know
who you think about who you think about
shouldnt kiss shouldnt tell
shouldnt have without farewell to me
who you think about who you think about
what is it that keeps me hanging on to every word you said
what is it that keeps me holding on to you
cause youre stuck in my head like my favorite song
you put the scene on pause it still plays on
its chapter three its hard to breathe
the words are slowly fading
its stop and go in a rush on a busy street
bumper to bumper this empty seat
without you here i get no where
i ask why not me
coulda been coulda had
how could you do that and not look back
who you think about who you think about
you couldnt live and you couldnt breath
you couldnt be sharing the same dream with me
who you think about who you think about
Thursday, 23 April 2009
{ 6:23 pm }
today was utterly rubbish! hmm.. actually i was rubbish.. nothing better to do la to disturb people.. THURSDAY, the most boredom day ever in history.. pfft.. luckily today was a bit slacking..
first 2 period was maths.. omg, maths have been a bit cuckoo seh.. imeant my head.. we learn about gradient and stuff.. its quite simple actualy.. i just need to remember the formula.. pfft.. the next 2 period was Social Studies.. finally, mrs liew, talk things out with the class about thier behaviour during the previous chemistry lessons... our class was extremely noisy la.. i sometimes feel like giving up with the class la seriously.. they are such..such.. KIDS.. hais.. but i know i cant give up coz im the monitor and monitor..ermm..monitors the class?? hah.. sigh.. yea.. and i dont want the others who really want to study be interupted by those idiots! especially i dont want to dissapoint my favourite teacher, Mrs Liew! hah.. so ill keep on trying to do what i can.. ANW, after social studies we had biology.. ermm, for bio, nothing much happen.. i thought there would be a test but instead, we had to do some shit drawings of the human circulatory system.. was it? or was it digestive system? i think its digestive system coz i know i draw a stomach.. lol.. so it must be a digestive system..
recess came next and i didnt really it much.. eat bread and drink blueberry basil.. nice tau! chatted and went back to class.
english after that. it was reading period. so we read. chemistry next, had a pop quiz? i think.. kind of a test.. i was cheating all the way.. coz my head wasnt straight and my mind was somewhere else.. pfft.. after that history! favourite dok! but teacher never come.. oh well.. pfft.. wasted seh.. but nvm, can let me rest for at least an hour.. had to do this sucky worksheet also.. i anyhow do coz i dont really understand the questions..
oh yea, me and putri played a prank on syarif an nafis.. lazy to explain..but just know that we are really evil! putri's idea btw guys! so no heart feelings.. syarif is ok with me already.. i think..nafis, i havent met him yet.. well, the reason for the prank is basically because we were bored..to death.. hmm.. oh yea, i finally got to see PUJA.. one of the students from New Dehli whom visited our school.. i heard she had a crush on me.. hahahahahahahaha.. omg.. i smiled very wide la when putri told me that one of the girls admire me.. haha.. so funny.. so i wanted to check her out.. ok, i was amazed la people! all of them are not the indians that we all thought they were.. they are really the same like us.. they have fair skin tone.. fairer than me la.. lol..now i feel like im an indian.. pfft.. thanks uh.. well PUJA is Quite pretty.. her other friends are also pretty.. haha... im gonna add PUJA on my Facebook as soon as putri gives me her email address.. LOL.. funny la..
i would really like to hold your hand tight and walk the journey of your life together. but you see, i cant. i promise you if i really have that chance and time to stay with you, i will. this i promise you. the only thing is i really have no chance. i was not allowed to i guess. i dont know what to do girl, im really at lost. i tried to get over you but it just makes me think of you more. and everything around me reminds me of you. the songs i hear, the words i heard, the lessons i studied..it really reminds me of you. you were never a burden to me. you're the one who makes me smile and sad at the same time. i dont know. im not strong enough. im not strong.. im really sorry. :( sigh.
Wednesday, 22 April 2009
{ 9:20 pm }
wow just now was torturous seh.. is ti torturous? wth, whatever.. it really shitin my brain uh. got match against serangoon secondary.. really reminds me of her.. omg.i kept on dazzing off la.. wth.. luckily i was unable to play la.. but i was daydreaming while the game started.. hais.. wth.. hais.. i really miss you la.. but what can i do to forget you.. i always want to forget you.. but to be honest, i dont want to forget you! hais.. i just dunnoe what to do.. why must we be get to know each other? why must i fall for you? why are my feelings for you cant just go away?
hais.. im really sorry if i hurt you.. but to tell you honestly, im afraid! im afraid if im still get to know you, my feelings for you are stronger and i love you much2 more.. that may cause alot of problems considering you have no feelings for me.. i dont mean to scare you in anw but i just want to let you know how.. how.. hais..nvm.. im just really sorry.. sigh..
Tuesday, 21 April 2009
{ 9:02 pm }
Lately things have been a little crazy..flippin out and buggin my thoughts..
god only knows just what i would be..If i didn't have you hear loving me..I
Wake up all hours of the night when u are away..i would crack a smile every time that you're on my brain..me without you just ain't right
So if i lose you how will i survive..Hais, i feel lost seh.. i was really not focusing.. always daydreaming and wonder to nowhere. omg.. i dont know if my deiseion is right or wrong.. it fells right but im suffering instead.. when im with you, im sad, without you also im sad.. hais.. what exactly that i want? i dont even know.. i notice something about myself.. when i relaly love that someone, i only can be friends with them.. nothing more.. seriously.. when i just admire and not really into relationship, ill be in a relationship with her.. omg.. that's just doesnt makes any sense.. but yeah, its me..
oh yea, today slack to the crapping core! imagine this, every lesson there were no teacher-in-charge... except for maths and mother tongue.. do you know that that was my happiest day yet! lol.. hmm.. had napfa! i totaly slack la during napfa.. so lazy! but i love my shuttle run though! 9.4 seconds! woohoo! how fast am i? lol.during lessons i told putri i had throat cancer. haha.. very funny.. my voice just became suckier everytime.. so much for joining anugerah next year.. haha.. hopefully, im ok by then.. hmm..
sigh.. i really am confused with my life.. its really sucks.. i mean, i really wish i have no feelings at all.. actually i wish i have no feelings of loving someone coz it will just end up hurting oneself..loving family is a must btw.. hais.. i really have no idea uh! what to do, what to say, how to react..i always kept thinking of you! why cant you just leave my mind! :( i miss you:(
Monday, 20 April 2009
{ 7:50 pm }
Being with you, ive never felt happier
in your warmth embrace, ive never felt more complete.
i pray i have the strength and courage to tell you this.
im sorry, it was never meant to end this way.
im afraid to leave, its the best for both of us.
but i hope you remember this till the end of time.
All my life, ive never loved anyone more than you.
This I Promise You.
Love, Fyque
Sunday, 19 April 2009
{ 9:47 pm }
its tearing up my heart when im with you but when we are apart i feel it too.. and no matter what i do i feel the pain.. with or without you.. i dont understand, just why we cant be lovers.. and things are getting out of hand..trying too much but we cant win..just let it go.. if you want me girl, let me know.. i am down, on my knees..i cant take it anymore.. dont misunderstand what im trying to tell you, in the corner of my mind, it feels like we're running out of time..
{ 7:47 pm }
This Game Is Awesome OK! a strategic game.. although im not a big fan of strategic game, this game rocks! must i explain to you how its played? im kinda lazy uh.. ok uh, maybe abit uh.. k the game goes like this.. it a multiplayer game obviously.. 2-6 players.. there is 6 groups of armies with different colours.. the objective of the game is to conquer all the country! that's it..try to make your way and dominate every country you could possible can.. fight against other armies using dices.. the higher the dice, the more chances of you destryong the other armies.. it's really fun! i played it with my cuzzins and my uncle at grandma house! i was at granny house since friday till now..
watch alot of movies at granny house that my uncle showed us.. a movie marathon! and the best part is all horror type of movies.. sleep till 2+am seh! shiok sia!
im really seriously and honestly am bored with living! you know why? i tell you the reall reason why.. when we live, we have to face challenges, face chances, face everything that people are facing it.. and sometimes we overcome them.. but MOST of the time it fails..we have to encounter friendships, love and all that stuff.. which will never LAST FOREVER! remember that.. no matter how much you love that person, sooner or later, the person or you will just forget about them.. and im, a 15 years old stupid arshole who have a so called life, is already tired and bored of life! coz its the same stpupid routine.. you meet people, you leave people.. people meet you, people leave you.. its like that.. im not saying just about love.. friendships too.. and alot of other things.. betrayal, trust, socialism, racistism, gangsterism. is it gangsterism? oh wth, whatever it is! yea.. all this thing is coping up in life.. and everytime we are learning new things if you dont notice them.. we learn everything around us! we learn to love and get heartbroken, we learn to trust, ended up hatred, we learn to be patient, end up dissapointed.. see, its always the same boring thing.. and im tired, im tired getting this so called routine.. im honestly speaking by the way!
i really cant wait for 18.11.2012; the time where i live peacefully
Thursday, 16 April 2009
{ 9:33 pm }
that is what i want to say to you..Just Close Your Eyes, Each Loving Day, And KNow This Feelings Wont Go Away
school was like half day for mall soccer boys.. 11 am we had our break till 5pm..
got our game.. against kent ridge.. we lost eventually 1-0.. but you know what, we fought hard and we played better than those losers.. honestly! they are sore losers.. if they want to fight, fight uh.. not scared uh!! hais.. dun wanna talk about it.. if want to fight, dun play soccer.. play wrestling uh.. stupid sia! hate sia people with no sportsmanship.. pfft.. pathetic sia!
tomorow confirm kena scolding because i left my hmwk under my desk! perfect day sia today! i like sia! -_-||
i always wonder what i really need to do to have that trust and a strong affection towards people.. i always end up only being friends?? if not, ill be with them but for a little while.. why cant i find that someone who loves me for me? who could be there when i need them? who could understand me completely? who can be with me no matter what? why cant she be like you? refering to you, amy.. haha. i really miss being with you.. you werent by my side for, wait let me see, 4 years? yea.. you leave me alone in this cruel world and remember what you told me about that joke "I'D Always Hated People!" haha.. yea, i know how you feel.. i hate people too.. lol.. i miss you alot.. the only reason im saying this in public is only because you just called me and told me to talk about you! haha.. no la.. i ikhlas! tk bedek.. ouh yea, i cant stop but calling you amy seh.. pfft.. and i hated that name..from you la obviously.. dah kebiasaan.. pfft. all your fault.. oh yea, tell Pete that im sorry coz i didnt wished him happy birthday last night.. i totally forget..
so here goes; HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU FRIEND, PETE GRANDISON JOHN! WISH ALL THE BEST FOR WHATEVER YOU DO MAN! HAHA.. AND EXPECIALLY IN TAKING CARE OF MY GIRL! LOL.. OK NOW ITS YOUR GIRL, BUT STILL MINE! HAHA.. so take good care of amy for me man.. she is my one and only aight.. dun make her upset.. haha.. you mess with my besty, you get my punchy! lol.. i mean it btw! lol.. take care aight!
Tuesday, 14 April 2009
{ 8:02 pm }
hello earthlings and earthlings hello!
ok? haha.. today school was ok2.. early in the morning went to school with nafis, firman and muhaimin.. haha.. actually i was suppose to meet muhaimin only but met nafis and firman on the way to school.. then went to school, finished up my hmwk at school..:P.. well was too tired then.. haa.. then first lesson was mother tongue -.-!
what a great start of the day.. haha.. walau like the hmwk my mother tongue teacher gives is like ALOT! so the lazy.. after that had history! it was ok la.. after that., english.. it was also ok.. better than yesterday.. haha.. at least my teacher was in a good mood.. then had recess.. urm than maths! omg maths is kiling me la.. after i learn a chapter, a new chapter will come... omg then when i know the new chapters, i'll forget about the previous one! pfft.. thankfully it was 1 period..my head could rest at least.. lol.. then had geography.. OMG! i studied alot uh at geography..i was actually surprise when i could actually answer most of the questions my teacher gave.. haha! so fun.. but i confirm you, ill forget about it sooner or later! haa.. then had english again.. 2periods.. but half hour of the perioud we had to do our IC CARD!
oh yea, speaking bout that, i forgot to bring my photo and letter sia for the ic card! pfft.. but luckily the people who's doing our ic had made extra copies for us.. so i was able to do them.. oh and we had to pay freking $10 for IC CARD! and fortunately i had that 10 bucks! lol.. and more shitty was that we only recieve it in a months time..i think! that's what putri told me.. hmm oh well..
Ive been forgetting things alot.. dont tell me that ... oh NO! hmm.. maybe its my time.. anw, my cough is really crappin me out! ergh! its so irritating and really destroys my stamina.. is it destroy? ohk whatever, it really shittin my stamina.. lol.. its really like ergh! haa..my back also is crappin! lol.. hais..why must all this happens during my national round?! why couldnt it happen when im gonna die soon or something.. heh.. did i say soon? i meant when im old? hee.. k la..
i need my rest! i gtg..im disturbing jirah dearest! haha, so funny! bye!
Monday, 13 April 2009
{ 9:55 pm }
"Gone"
There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change
Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..
You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...
I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
The time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to
So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do
Yeah....
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone
Oh...
Oh, what will I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oh...
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..
But the truth remains
You're....
{ 9:39 pm }
i love the song above..
i seriously wish i had a group of singers who can sing and ill like us to sing that song.. whoah! it will be so awesome!
you guys must be wondering why i so emo right?
hmm idk actually.. im not really that type of emo-emo shit actually la..
i dunnoe.. i mean everyone has feelings right?
hmm, im really like feeling so diorientated seh..hmm..
my back hurts, my cough getting worst..its really irritating la!
pfft,
die better lol..hmm..hais.. haiyoyoyoyo! ergh!
haha.. seems like amy has change alot i think..
hmm.. i want to see her again.. i wanne tell everything to her seh!
hais, how much i missed her also i cant tell..hanya allah je la yang tahu..
im glad you've change alot seh! mama would be so proud of you!! bye!
Sunday, 12 April 2009
{ 10:49 am }
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.Those which i highlighted in bold is exactly what i am.. so love me or hate me, up to you coz i cant change my way of life and i wont change the way i am!
Saturday, 11 April 2009
{ 11:42 pm }
Its Really Funny How Things Turns Out..haha..
sometimes something we want, we can get it but wont..
somethings we dont want, we will get it but we cant..
understand? coz i dun really understand..
haha.. oh well, lets just say my life right now is freaking crap.. how bout that?
im not able to love anyone, to play proper soccer and have stuff i want!
haa.. i had to give up the one person i love
well i guess its a win-win situation i guess..
she doesnt need to stress out on me and i dont need to let her worry for me
haa.. i guess, we all win i think..
hmm.. guess this is the right way.. hmm..
{ 10:40 pm }
Watch this with no regrets! watch this with my friends.. so the best! the cars especially! its cool.. hmm.. that's all i wanna say.. im really not in the good mood now.. hmm!
{ 11:45 am }
today's training was suffering for me coz i had a bad cough and my back hurts la!
woke up at 7 and reach school around 8.10! was 10 min late but luckily coach rosli was not there.. so coach margen took over.. for the first training was to run 2 round around the field in 2 minutes and 30 seconds! omg, it was damn tiring! haha.. i msg jirah and complain.. haha.. she was worried.. how cwit! lol.. ok then after that we played 2 vs 2.. that one more sian! lol my back was really like giving up la but i'd stayed strong or ill not gained anything in it. haha.. after that, we played 6 v 6! haha.. that one i can relax abit.. muahaha.. not that tiring.. ok la.. still hurts.. then that it..went to mcdonald with din and ariff..we go eat then we go home..now my back is freaking hurting..and later i go study with friends! haah
bye!
Thursday, 9 April 2009
{ 9:21 pm }
Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...
Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...
{ 8:17 pm }
COOL or not? maybe not or yes uh.lol.. anw, this is me btw.. and its was the art work we did.. honestly speaking, i really just mixed everything in that picture.. then i came to that..cool tk? ahaahhaha
today in school was so tiring..actually ok la.. not that boring though.. hmm.. thursday must be the most boring day of my life.. all subjects are not my favourite. pfft.. only maths.. maths can be fun if im doing maths with Li zhe.. he is great man.. he really can do maths.. although some question is really stressful but with his intelligents and my so called "double checking" we can solve the problem man.. no problem one! lol haha.. i can really study and understand the questions when i do maths with li zhe..muahahhaa..he makes maths fun la actually.. the rest of the lessons was ok
we recieved our new ez-link card today btw..and finally i can see each and every one of my classmates's picture when they were still in pri school.. haha.. i dont mean to offend you guys but looking you guys back then and now.. very different.. lol.. i almost laughed at every picture i see uh.. lol.. the only one that was not diff was KARTIKA's.. her face like never change.. haha.. last time pretty, now also same pretty.lol.. like wth..
we had training after school. some of us including me had to run across the field 10 times!!!!! its to test our stamina.. omg i felt like dying la.. then after the first 10 sets, we had to go for another set after a short break!!! like wth! i had cramps on my left leg sia! after all that set, we played two-side..that one was fun!!! muahaha.. best! i scored one goal.. i really feel like playing back to become a striker! coz seriously i feel much more comfortable there.. hmmm.. fed up la..lol.. i miss those days when i became a striker.. i scored 12 goals the whole tournament.. haha..didnt mean to brag la kan! lol..seriously, i missed it! ergh!! haha..
i cant believe that mid year exams is in next 2-3 weeks la.. and i didnt study shiets! lol.. need to start now!! pfft! i really need to buck up la with my education!
That's all folks
I miss you and i love you,im wonder if you do too
Wednesday, 8 April 2009
{ 8:44 pm }
To Amy/Aidah,
im really fed up with your childish acts towards mama and papa tau.. this has gone to a point where i comes in.. i need to sort you out.. i dont care what people will say here coz you already did many sins and you were never like this few years back..What really happened to you? you used to call me at least once a months la kan but now i recieved calls from mama telling me things that im not proud of out of you.. you really have gone too far la right now. where were the Aidah i knew long time ago.. where is she? i want her back.. if you want to tell me shit, tell me.. ill help you out.. you are never alone.. you always have other people who loves you and care for you la.. dont make them disheartened by the fact that you treat mama like this.. you know she called me almost everynight, crying about your misbehaviour in high school and after school.. you were brought to the police, not once but thrice! WHY!!!!!! why in the hell you have to this! what your motive?! i need to know! is it your friends? as long as im concern, your friends are ok.. ive met them before..they are nice people.. what are you? influence? Dont Bullshit with me! just...even when im writing this, i feel like crying.. fug! ergh! im so pissed off right now.. with so many people! omg!
MAMA, im really sorry, im doing the best i can.. i had promised to take care of her but im kind of failing but im still staying strong for you and for her.. hais.. i feel so disorientated.. idk! omg..ergh!!
sigh
{ 8:09 pm }
Let's Just Say that im Not in My Best Mood Right now.. OK?
im not gonna talk about it.. just leave it that way! bye! "/..
Tuesday, 7 April 2009
{ 8:58 pm }
if there's one wish right now..i really wanna know what's in your heart..
coz im really confused.. must i really go through this? sometimes, i really feel very disheartened.. i dont know why.. its like; one moment im happy, then im sad..im really happy, then im really sad.. My life right now is a roller coaster right now with you.. i want to give up but i cant.. its not that i want to, i just cant.. hmm..school was ok.. i laughed alot around my friends.. haha..they cheers me up alot la.. haha.. wel, im the one making them laugh actually but they give me ideas to to say or do that is funny.. haha..got one time, me and firdaus was singing this song "camelia"-irwanshah.. then we were singing near to Ika and Shaff..then i started to sing to Ika the same song but change the lyrics so as so that it have link with her life and her bf..then when i sing, firdaus was a background singer..so when i sing, firdaus start to echo.. then its like so funny la.. then we laughed like hell la..Shaff started to take video..haha..
another thing that made me laugh was russel peter.. he is freaking funny! i recommend people and friends to watch his stand up comedy show..but its racist and uncensored but freaking true and funny.. haha..go to youtube or google.. and type his name out..its funny la seh! i confirm you, you will laugh like its crazy..okok?
kla, bye! take care!
Sunday, 5 April 2009
{ 4:19 pm }
Wahai Manusia, sedar la dirimu..
Hidup di dunia hanya sementara..
dekatkan diri padanya..
Biar terluka, hapuskan sangsimu..
ia la petunjuk buat segalanya..
arahkan diri padanya..
dan bila kau tertanya
kemanakah hala jalan hidupku
ialah jawapan untukmu
This is so true la kan.. hmm.. some people just dont get this.. hmph..
k la..bye!
Thursday, 2 April 2009
{ 9:21 pm }
hey guys..
haha, today i didnt went to school.. lol.. so funny.. i have headches uh, but very minor.. the real reason is im lazy.. haha.. ok.. whatever.. anw, im really really bored to death.. lol.
oh yea something interesting happened today..
i recieved a call from some girl.. i have no freaking idea who! her name is Tini. or was it tina? lol.. dont know la.. she claims that she knows me seh.. she said we contact through msn last time.. haha.. she said she wanted to meet me.. WTH!? in my head was like, is it april fool again? lol.. but i said uh, maybe we should know each other first before we start talking about meeting up.. haha.. she said we know each other already.. i thought it was a prank uh.. BUT guess what, she knows my name, my age and where im currently school in.. i tried to recall who in the hell is she.. but i dont recall la obviously.. i told her that i dun know her.. she intro herself.. she send me an mms of her picture.. quite attractive.. haha.. but i dun really remember her face.. i think i had might have seen her before but u know, sometimes you thought you might seen the person but actually you dont.. some kind of dejavu.. but honestly, idk who she is.. it was funny shit la.. then i act as though i know her la.. haha.. then she said she miss me and shit.. that's when i this came to my mind "CONFIRM DESPO TO FIND A BF".. i didnt say anything.. then finally she ask me if im attached.. i giggled and i said i am.. i dont want to lie but i just dont like girls who are despo! they just want guys to be loved..but not love the guys.. pfft.. pathetic! then she was like "ooh".. then she said she need to go.. i gladly said ok.. haha.. then she put down the phone.. i laughed after putting down the phone.. LOL.. so funny sia.. this is what i know about her..
name:Tini/Tina
age:14
school:didnt get the chance to ask
met her: she claims that i gave her my phone number last year
urm, i think that's all.. haha.. like wth? i dont remember all that..pfft..wtf! FUNNY SHIT! i got the feeling she's gonna call me soon.. haha.. so funny.. whatever la seh..
k la.. bye la.. lol..im still laughing..haha
Wednesday, 1 April 2009
{ 9:04 pm }
hey everyone..everyone hey!
hmm lame.. shuttup!! guess what, im pissed with someone right now.. its like talking to a rock la kan.. goes one of the ears, come out the other.. ergh.. why cant you just understand what i said? crap sia.. pfft..
and im really lazy to do my homework! ergh.. hais.. history is freaking interesting.. i never knew people were so cruel back in the days.. oh well, screw them.. pfft.. GEOG also interesting.. now i knoe how landforms are formed.. lol.. i understand them.. lol.. hmm..maths also.. omg i realise that the subjects i hated before, i began to love them.. wow.. haha.. okok.. stupidddd... anw, im really having a serious backache and headache.. ergh!
bye..
