Sunday, 8 June 2008
{ 12:44 am }
im missing her day by day
thinking bout her everday
never thought we could be together
seems like a dream come true!
we've been friends for quite some time
and i love every second of it
i wanted more!
you gave me more
but as days goes by
i felt more apart from you then i thought i would be
what happening to us?!
why werent we were before like we use to when we were friends?
to tell you honestly, i felt the love and concern more when we were friends!
seriously, and i thought you could give me more love or concern now that we are together..
but it seems like none has been increasing! mostly decreasing..
i felt miserable then ever..
remember the time i told you about that love thingy that i dun believe?
u were the one who let me believe in it again!
and i did, but not for long..
it happened again, n again! and kept repeating!
this is why i try not to get involve in relationships..
because it hurts!
i tried staying strong for you..
tried to presevere every thing you did,hurting me..
but i kept crying deep inside!
it just hurt the most..
i tried my very best to believe in myself and you..
i know its totally unfair to you..
im here, saying all this crap!
but i had to let it out somehow..
cause everytime i tried to walk away,
there's always something that tells me i should stay!
i know i should be strong, but girl it feels so wrong!
holding on, its so much easier said than done...
i just letting this out because i cant stop thinking about you!
and everytime i think about you, i think that we were happy,
loving couple..but when we meet, i just dont feel it...
i wanted to but you wouldnt let it out..
some people said, boys shud do the first move..
but how can i with you show no interest in me??
i felt awkward..felt like you didnt even care, if i die or live..
mayb im wrong or mayb you just never notice..
i tried to talk this things with you the other time,
"but time doesnt allow it though.."
so i guess, we cant meet up till school reopens
so im letting it out here..
now its exactly 1 am!
and i cant sleep, kept thinking about you..
im not asking fer anything!
i just want to let you figure it out on your own..
and think through what we had become and did we make the right decision..
im sorry, if some of this is harsh on you..
but always remember that i love you and care bout you..
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