To tell you the truth..

im really am confused in my life right now..

i dont know whether to give up her!

i know, if i love her very much, i shouldnt give up..

but..but..hais

i really do like her..

i always wonder, does she ever know?

does she ever think bout me?

and sometimes i ask this stupid question:

Why does girl exist??

lol..k..but thank god girls exist or we would like be gays all over..eeeeeeww!

but really should i give her up??

hmmm...

haiaiaiaiaiaiai...

exams is like around the corner! and i have my personal problems, and studies! oh mymymymy!

so far school, the class has been an asshole! noisy like one big F***! tired of being a monitor!

but cannot give up! hais.. my friends has always been there to cheer me on!

whole of this week i want to thank:

-putri,khalisah

-hirzi, haikal, firdaus, muhaimin and faris!

they have been with me for like 4 ever! haha..can count on them..

mayb some oni uh..haha..love you guys alot!

Ive been quite happy nowadays..

at least i tried to be..

hais..scared and sad..

never want to let my love ones to know..

what happening to me..it will just make them feel worst..

hais..

okok..stop it seh fiqq..alright..

urm..school was fun..hang out at hirzi house..learn the song SOS-jonas brothers..now im learning chasing cars-snow patrol...urm..alot more songz from me..heee...urm...then went to fetch hirzi brother..coz his brother says there was sumone who tries to beat him up last time..so hirzi ask our help to accompany him to fetch his brother..hirzi worried that guy will come and really beat his brother..so for now..his brother is safe as long as we are there..chey macam hero la kita nie..haha..haha...okok....urm..then went home..went ngaji..(rumah dier jauh la seh!!) urm..then now,searching for song tabs..huhuhuh..!

k la..urm...nothing else i think..bye2!

tc!

Wanna know sumthing!!

totally random,shocking and unreal!

at least for me uh..

okok..i was going to bed at night and i was listening to a radio at my mp3 uh..

then there's a song elliot yamin-wait for you..

and i was thinking of a certain someone whom i shared this song with last time..

then i was thinking of sumone else when the song had finished and suddenly the song changed into miley cyrus(hanna montana)-one in a million! and i suddenly sat up and was like shock uh..

like WTH..

i just think of that person and suddenly that was the song i knew from her!!

i was like..oh shit uh..then i went to bed..

im still in shock!!! okokok!! couldnt believe!

than this morning i still kept wondering how the radio know all this!oh god..haha..funny sia!

tiring like one dumbass!

k school as per normal..nothing interesting..

but i kept on coughing and coughing..everytime i cough,my heart kept hurting..hate it..

then got napha..oh god..i only got silver for my napha!!!

erghhh..same like last year! erghh..

the first station we did was sit ups!! oh god..hate that..

i had no confidence at all doing sit ups cause i know my back will just hurts..

and guess what..it hurts..after the 35 counts..i could hear my back cracking..

so scary but i kept on moving coz only got another 20 seconds..and i did 46..

oh god..can die liao! then went off to sit and reach..like always im always no. 1 in this sit and reach..no one can beat my record..haha..i think uh..i mean for my class la..i got 53cm...weeee...haikal got second..he 51cm..oh god so close..haha..urm k after that..

went for standing broad jump..guess what i get only 193cm!!! like wth! worse then ever!

last year was 198cm..shit sia!! then went for inclined pull up..i look at other do like simple sia!

then when i did..i was suffering..SUFFERING..it was tiring la seh..my hands were sore when i reach 21 counts...in the end i gt 30!!ohoh..and MR KONG DID SOMETHING FUNNY!!! i cant explain it here..but it was funny i tell you like the "CORPORAL ONG ON ARMY DAZE WHERE HE SAYS"THERE ARE MANY FISH IN THE POND" u know that facial impression corporal ong did..thats what mr kong did..i was laughing my ass out..but hirzi they all didnt see..such waste!!!! if not we laugh like hell la sia!!!! cannot tahan..when mr kong saw me laugh..he also smile at me..hahahahaha...so funny..k the last station was the shuttle run..more worst..i got 9.37 seconds!!!! ergh..last year i got 9.5 seconds ok!!! fcuk la..the most fastest is haikal..urm i think 9.4 seconds..firdaus is 9.12..hirzi got 9.41..i won hirzi wooohooo!!!hirzi got fed up that i won him in shutle run and inclined pull ups!! hahaha..after that went back home!! sweet..

I cant Bear Seeing You Hurt!

F.Y.I

i did give you a chance

at least i tried giving you a chance

about this chances..

i gave too many.. to realise im just being played..

i am now giving chances..

i did say i love you

but only did i meant it

i did forgive you..long time ago..

but i never can forget..

i did give you chances..long time ago..

but i never get the chance..

i did not say i hated you..never ever

but u think i showed it to you..

i did gave you the hatred face..

but i was only trying to get rid of those happiness that we shared since you have someone new..

I DID!

i nvr hated you..

i nvr did said i hated you..

you said you know how it feels like..

why do it again? to me??

i came in your life..

hoping,thinking of recreating a new beginning..

which i thought i did..and it was a great feeling..

untill i thought it was..

i tried, holding on strong..

tried to forget you and lead the normal life before i met you..

but what did you do?

you came stucking in my head everytime i tried to relax,

play soccer, do my hmwk and even now..

its like everytime..

now sometimes i wish we....we....

forget it..

i dunnoe whether to believe you..

you broke my heart not once..ok! not once!

i dunnoe if you are aware..

i cant take this anymore..

I never said i hate you!

Im Missing Jacelyn And Larry Already!!!!!!boooohoooo!"crying"

I MISS THIS BLOODY CAMP LA PEOPLE!

Dulu Dan Selamanya - A To Z

Kepada mu ku curahkan

Kepada mu ku buktikan

Segala yang ku janjikan

Dari dulu dan selamanya

Biar musim pun berganti

Namun aku kan kembali

Kepada mu disisi

Bersama lagi hanya kau ku sayangi

Biar hari berganti dan pergi

Kerana ku tahu kau kasihku

Kali ini ku kembali

Dalam alunan mesra sinar pagi

Ku genggam erat tangan mu ku bawa bersama

Ke alam realiti dan fantasi

LOVE THIS SONG!!!

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Hello Blogku!!!

yesa! im back... very tired..the 3 days 2 night camp was awesome..1st i want to talk about the instructors..then the events..heee..

kk..when we get there, we were assign with two instructors..Larry and Jesclyn...im with Jesclyn..in group six..urm things to say about them is that..They are really such adorable people..they really are supportive and friendly..they help us alot..Larry is just a childish ass with soooo much confidents...haha....Jesclyn is such a sweet little lady with such leadership in her..like me..haha..okok..just joking aight..but they really are adorable..WE ARE SO GONNA MISS YOU..

kk the events was good..the 1st day, we did kayaking and nature rumble(play mud).. kayaking was fun.my partner was faris for the kayak when after PUTRI ditched me for haikal..hmph..haha..you ditcher! haha...kk..then, we spent some time for camp preparation..which really suck! actually we were doing a skit and a song when suddenly everything starts to go from bad to worst..like WTH..because when we were trying to make it more simpler, somebody just started making it so complicated..hais..oh then putri felt sick so she went home..awwwww...she miss out the fun at the nature rumble..nature rumble was so disgusting and smelly but fun at the same time..it was so awesome uh i tell you...we play mud..haha..i took the mud and really scrub it on my face..i look ugly..then khalisah spread the mud at haikal,firdaus,hirzi and my face again and we just look like some dumb black ape asses..haha..its funny uh..then we were smelly like hell..heng it was almost dinner..then we took a shower and have dinner..then we play a game called kidnapped..where we have to find our friend who are kidnapped..it was fun..then lights off...we obviously didnt slept..me,haikal,firdaus,ah-fat and muhaimin were listening to ghost story at 12 am at RIA fm..it want that scary than i used to here last time..hee..k then we suddenly sleep..The second day,we did high elements..it was ok..then did some camp preparation..we decide to do a dance and song instead..heee..urm then..had lunch..continue with the high elements till dinner..then after that..urm...oh campfire..it was awesome..we were rocking and having good time uh!!!weeee....we did break dance at last..which i wasnt told to do but suddenly ee ching and gang come out and did break dance..and i suddenly followed..haha..it was awesome..that was our performance for the campfire uh..it was cool la seh...after that we were noisy all the way..then had supper than light off...i sleep early la seh..shit!too tired..oh and when the high elements..i heard a cracking sound at my back sia...i dunnoe what uh..but suddenly it hurts sia!!okok..then for the third day..we said goodbye to all the instructors..

but before that we did some cleaning actually...haha...k after that...we went back to school and gone home..well actually that so called "cutey" wanted to see me..but she called saying that she was sorry to not have pick me up...boohoo..:(..

RUMOURS:
-fariz likes instructor jesclyn
-munawwar paiseh when he tries to act tough when an instructor was looking at him and heard every single word he said and when munawwar was stepping, he turns round and saw the instructor right at his face,he turns back around and action to sleep..HAHAHAHA..like WTH uh!

k..what i have to say is that..camp was fun..it wouldnt have been without the help of the two instructors..LARRY AND JESCLYN...we will remember u guys always and miss you guys and love you guys like we still do to our last year instructors..you guys really are something to us..well at least for some of us..at least i appreciate you guys helping out..not like SOME PEOPLE! disgusting little bitches!!!! tries to be cool when they are just being bunch of gigolows whores!!!bitches! talk to the hand aight!! f*** off!